my little star...

hi, all..

these days, i have a deeper vision about my decision in life, just after i got so many troubles that were mixed into such a worst condition. my focus is now only reaching Alloh's mercy, Alloh's best choice for my life, now and forever. i just want to do the best in me, may Alloh guide me and protect me in my way...

i wish a little star will light my way home, to back to my nature, such a weak person created by the Creator that will always need Alloh's guidance and Alloh's hand..

me, indeed, a weak person that should not be boast, should not be takabur since everything we have now in this world is only Alloh's deposits to our lifes, cant be owned eternally. someday just when the day after tomorrow come over, Alloh will ask us for the responsibilities we should give to all we have now..

i just try to be more careful and Insya Alloh will accept everything that Alloh has put it as my destiny. i'll do my best, but i extremely am sure that it cant be mine if Alloh doesnt give any permission for me to take it..dont be afraid, Alloh knows the best for the human beings, animals, and all of this world's contents..

a friend of mine shared me a great review that can help me to back home to the place where i should be, to the characteristic of a better rey..

rere kita cuma sbentar lho mampir di dunia
jangan bersedih duniawi ya rere
tapi kalo deket Alloh rasanya dunia itu gak berat
tapi klo jauh lagi beratnya minta ampun
dont be sad my rere
serahkan ma Allah jika kamu yakin ma yg diatas
(non. 15 february 2006)

There is also a story of a praying man that is given by Aa Gym in his endeavour :

"Ketika kumohon pada Allah kekuatan Allah memberiku kesulitan agar menjadi kuat
ketika kumohon pada Allah kebijaksanaan Allah memberiku masalah untuk kupecahkan
ketika kumohon Allah kesejahteraan Allah memberiku akal untuk berpikir
ketika kumohon pada Allah keberanian Allah memberiku bahaya untuk kuatasi
ketika kumohon pada Allah sebuah cinta Allah memberiku orang2 bermasalah untuk kutolong
ketika kumohon pada Allah bantuan Allah memberiku kesempatan
aku tak pernah menerima apa yang kupinta tapi aku menerima segala yang kubutuhkan"


nice prayer, isnt' it?
i always keep that prayer in my heart,
a prayer that has brought me into such a better condition,
all i do is under Alloh's decision
such in Al Qur'an it is written "kun fa yakun"
if Alloh say happens, it will happen..

Alloh knows the best for us,
never afraid of being trapped into bad condition,
someday Alloh will help us to go out from that, just when Alloh think it will be better for us..
feel Alloh in our hearts,
we will be closed and closed to Alloh
listen to the good music of Alloh's instruments in Al Qur'an...
we will sleep soundly in Alloh's swing...
Insya Alloh...

love. rere. arleynova

a baseball player

dear buddies,

can u see my avatar beside this post?
yap, a baseball player..
when i was a child, i used to dream it...to be a sweet bright baseball player.

why baseball?
i have a good strike (especially after my sports teacher said that my strike was a straight-bouncing strike) so i can make some strikes, run, and fall on the base..
hmmm...dusty, black-red skinned, sweaty...

i also dream i can wear a big leather glove, and throw balls in the field,
seeing my "enemies" run and fall down on the base..
i use to collect some baseball t shirts instead since i cant play the sport..hehe..
but now i lost it..

my bad experience in the field was i had once been hurted by a short-thrown ball by my el school friend, it hurted my centre chest..ugh, i cant breath easily at that time, my heart beat faster than usual. so, the game was stopped, since my injury was becoming serious

unfortunately, all of that sweet dream has never been true.
i am now a working-girl, dont have much time to relax and to take an exercise or sports.
am i a finacial-minded person who neglect my health?
ugghh...poor me, i am that kind of person..

i have no much time to socialize with all of my best longlasting friends, colleagues, and families.
what i have is only time for clients, partners, bosses, office fellows, etc.
i miss the quiet life,
when i feel comfort with the simple things, simple job, and sweet dream.

love. rere. arleynova